Two Thousand Thirteen

Assalamualaikum. Wuu dah lama tak munculkan diri and I got so much stories to tell. But pelan pelan. Maaf ye bapak bapak ibu ibu sebab tutup blog lama. Punca tutup blog pun ada banyak sebab hihi. Abaikan, now I'm back with my writings! Rindunya jadi blogger balik :')

Happy New Year everyone. Ahlan Wassahlan 2013. Sebelum saya mulakan azam baru, saya kena recall balik 2012 sy. Tak kan nak tinggal macam tu kan? Sangat tak mengenang budi hihi.

Dear 2012,

Thanks for giving me so much fun, and not to forget those heartbreaking moments. At least I'm learning something from that. Phew, 2012 adalah tahun sangat mencabar. Biasalah, semakin kita melangkah dewasa, semakin banyak dugaan yang kita kena tempuh. Tahun ini jugak lah saya banyak mengalirkan air mata. Orang lain tak tahu. Kadang kadang orang ingat kalau kita menangis, automatic keluar dari mulut

 "haa nangis pasal bf lah tu".

Sy tak nafikan, memang that was part of them but not overall kita nangis sbb bf. Might be soal family, kawan. Or soal kita dengan Tuhan. Who knows right. Hati kita je yang tahu. Pernah jugak sy menangis depan kawan sy, and sy cakap sy tak tahu sy menangis sebab apa. Soal hati. Nice to told you, 2012 bukan lah tahun yang paling bermakna saya. I'm struggle so hard this year. Bila teringat, rasa macam woww. Tak sangka saya dah lalui semua tu. *tears dropping*

30 October 2011, you really make my day awak. Maybe because I'm hoping too much, dushhh I got an amazing nightmare on 27 August 2012. I can't desribe how it feels because frankly speak, I'm not ready for this. Bayangkan, the worst pain in life when you see your life being spoiled by the one you trust the most. And yet, you can't do anything except standing and asking is it the gift of trusting someone or is it what i deserve? Yes, i felt that way!

Till now, 01/01/2013 sy tak tahu apa yg jadi pada relay kita. Ini kan yg awak nak? Nah, I give it to you.

Now, we got nothing to do with anymore. Just to remind you, sekali sy nekad nak pergi, sy akan pergi even sayang ni tak pernah hilang. Ah, tell me how to fade this. Awak ingat ni. Sy dah banyak bersabar. And I'm suppose to end all of this, sebab nak masuk 2013 kan. Bak kata orang close the old book, turn to new. I'm not gonna hold on that.

Hidup kita semua dalam percaturan Allah. Lantak lah buku baru ke buku lama ke. The author is Allah. Sy redha dengan semua dugaan dia and I believe something goods will come behind this. Insya Allah, one day bila Allah pinjamkan kekuatan dia, I will free from this. I will.